Yep...it goes to me.
I am soo sooo sorry for no blogging..smack me if you must!
I'll post a quick update with the pregnancy, and other than that I really have nothing to talk about...I am boring mostly, what can I say?
So, I am officially into my 3rd trimester, which absolutely thrills me. being a nurse in L&D, I see a lot of preemie deliveries, and so that's always at the back of my mind. I just really want to get through the next 6 weeks and then if this little one decides to come, that's ok. I passed my GTT...my sugar was stellar actually! But I am so failing in the Blood Pressure department.
On Monday I started feeling really awful at work, so I asked a co-worker to check my BP...it was high, really not good. I rested for 15 min, and she checked again, still high. Luckily, I work where I am delivering...so I just walked down the hall to our triage, to have Sprout monitored and to get blood work drawn. All was fine, and with about an hours rest my BP came back to normal. This is the complicated part...my blood pressure is not consistently high...it goes high, then I take a breather and it comes back to normal, very difficult to treat BP that is labile like this. I have been taken off Night shifts, so I am down to only day shifts now, and if the BP continues to be a problem, then I might be off for good. I just really want to get another 4 weeks of working (at least), not even for the income as much as if I am at home, doing nothing, I will LOSE MY MIND. Working is my sanity.
We still don't know if the placenta has moved either. I have an ultrasound to check this at 32 weeks, on April 7th. I have had no bleeding, so this is good news! I am still suspicious though that its still low down, we had a 3D ultrasound for fun, and the baby was very low in my pelvis and cuddling up against the placenta...so it looked to me to be pretty low, though the u/s was just for fun and not diagnostic at all.
I think that's all I need write, I think I have trouble writing about all of this because I know the struggle of infertility, and don't want others to come and be so heartbroken reading about it. I am still an infertile under this glowing pregnant shell though. Its been very hard for me to transition from being the infertile, who has lost babies, to the pregnant, and generally things are going great person. The pregnancy has been really really easy. I was nauseous the first 20 weeks, and have the previa, and have the BP issues...but really it has been so much easier than I expected.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Viable!
24 Weeks today! if baby comes (which it had better not) there is a good chance that it will survive!
Today was also the day I miscarried our first baby after our first IUI. It was a hard weekend February 6th was the day we found out baby was gone. It was much easier to go through having this little one kicking and wiggling in my belly...but was still hard to think of what we lost that year ago. We are grateful to our first 2 babies though, for giving us the answers to make a safe place for their brother/sister to grow.
In other pregnancy related news...baby is still breech, kicks are all down low! I have an OB appointment this week to make sure all is well still. Still have previa until further notice (assuming its still previa) I have an u/s at 32 weeks to check on it and see if its moved. I have had no bleeding from it though...and hope it stays that way. My blood pressure has been fine, and I have had no symptoms of pre-eclampsia.
I have been really super tired lately...I am guessing baby is on quite the growth spurt because of this. Today I have been sick, I am hoping its just a pregnancy thing, and not a tummy bug, but I stayed home from work just in case it is a bug.
I scheduled my 3D ultrasound, thought it would be a fun thing to do. And I contacted a photographer to do Maternity and baby portraits, looking forward to that!
This is all I have for now...but will try to update as more things happen...now that I am getting toward the Third Trimester I am hoping there will be more to talk about.
Today was also the day I miscarried our first baby after our first IUI. It was a hard weekend February 6th was the day we found out baby was gone. It was much easier to go through having this little one kicking and wiggling in my belly...but was still hard to think of what we lost that year ago. We are grateful to our first 2 babies though, for giving us the answers to make a safe place for their brother/sister to grow.
In other pregnancy related news...baby is still breech, kicks are all down low! I have an OB appointment this week to make sure all is well still. Still have previa until further notice (assuming its still previa) I have an u/s at 32 weeks to check on it and see if its moved. I have had no bleeding from it though...and hope it stays that way. My blood pressure has been fine, and I have had no symptoms of pre-eclampsia.
I have been really super tired lately...I am guessing baby is on quite the growth spurt because of this. Today I have been sick, I am hoping its just a pregnancy thing, and not a tummy bug, but I stayed home from work just in case it is a bug.
I scheduled my 3D ultrasound, thought it would be a fun thing to do. And I contacted a photographer to do Maternity and baby portraits, looking forward to that!
This is all I have for now...but will try to update as more things happen...now that I am getting toward the Third Trimester I am hoping there will be more to talk about.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Placenta Previa
I am proof that things don't get less complicated once you achieve pregnancy after infertility!
I have Partial Previa of the placenta. the placenta is covering part of the cervix. As of right now, I only had some slight spotting over a week ago now, so my OB is not concerned about that. However if I bleed I am going to have to be off work and on bedrest, possibly in the hospital depending on how significant it is.
I just hope I don't bleed.
I will have another ultrasound at 32 weeks to see if the placenta has moved away, if it has all is well, if not, schedule the c-section for 37 weeks-ish I suppose.
I have Partial Previa of the placenta. the placenta is covering part of the cervix. As of right now, I only had some slight spotting over a week ago now, so my OB is not concerned about that. However if I bleed I am going to have to be off work and on bedrest, possibly in the hospital depending on how significant it is.
I just hope I don't bleed.
I will have another ultrasound at 32 weeks to see if the placenta has moved away, if it has all is well, if not, schedule the c-section for 37 weeks-ish I suppose.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Anatomy Scan
This morning was sprouts anatomy scan, 19w2d. Sprout was not co-operative at all, and they couldn't get all the shots they needed, after several tries, drinking juice, walking and emptying my bladder, still nothing. Long story short, we need to go back, on Monday...and we got NO pictures because of the position Sprout was in...face down back up...crappy.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Wow I Suck!
So it looks like I haven't updated you all in about 2 months! I am sorry.
Really, there's absolutely nothing to tell, this has been a firly uneventful pregnancy, which I wasn;t expecting to happen. I haven't had an ultrasound since my 12 week on that you have seen. My Anatomy scan is this Wednesday morning, and I am very much looking forward to seeing this baby again.
I have been seeing an OB medicine doctor in addition to my regular OB because of my pre-existing issues, and because my blood pressure was increased a bit. The good news is the my pressure is fine now, so it was probably just an early pregnancy anxiety thing. I remain on Fragmin, and will for the duration of the pregnancy, because of my increased risk factors for clotting on top of the MTHFR. My family has a huge history of clots(heart attacks) so they want to keep me on the thinner.
I am 19 weeks today! Sprout...we have lovingly named this baby-to-be, is moving all of the time, and I even bought a doppler to listen to the goings on in my 'ute'. Its been an amazing experience, and I feel so happy that I get to experience it. We are NOT finding out the gender until delivery day...so Sprout will be Sprout until it is born. We have a short list of names for each gender we will bring with us to the hospital. 5 names of each gender...and will pick a name from that list when we see what s/he looks like.
We only hope for healthy...whether Sprout has a penis or vagina really makes no difference. If we were theme-ing the nursery then it would be helpful to find out, but we are keeping everything neutral because we want to(hope to) have more babies in the future. The only name that is a definite will be if its a boy, we have decided to use my Dad's first name as the middle name (My dad passed away in 2004, and had a great first name!) I am pretty near certain that Sprout is a girl though...but I am usually wrong, so we will have to see.
Again...so sorry it has taken me so long to update...hopefully I can update more frequently now that I will be into the second half of the pregnancy, with belly pictures, appointments and ultrasounds. Not that any of that is really interesting, but just seems to be the thing to do!
Our Christmas was great, we spent it in our hometown with T's family. A nice long vacation. I was really glad to see the end of 2009, even though it brought me to where I am today, it was not an easy year. I had 3 pregnancies in 2009, and hopefully this one will go until May 2010! We lost T's grandma this year too, spent all of our available cash and more to one day have a baby...its been tough...but it has prepared me more for 2010 and all the future years to come.
Really, there's absolutely nothing to tell, this has been a firly uneventful pregnancy, which I wasn;t expecting to happen. I haven't had an ultrasound since my 12 week on that you have seen. My Anatomy scan is this Wednesday morning, and I am very much looking forward to seeing this baby again.
I have been seeing an OB medicine doctor in addition to my regular OB because of my pre-existing issues, and because my blood pressure was increased a bit. The good news is the my pressure is fine now, so it was probably just an early pregnancy anxiety thing. I remain on Fragmin, and will for the duration of the pregnancy, because of my increased risk factors for clotting on top of the MTHFR. My family has a huge history of clots(heart attacks) so they want to keep me on the thinner.
I am 19 weeks today! Sprout...we have lovingly named this baby-to-be, is moving all of the time, and I even bought a doppler to listen to the goings on in my 'ute'. Its been an amazing experience, and I feel so happy that I get to experience it. We are NOT finding out the gender until delivery day...so Sprout will be Sprout until it is born. We have a short list of names for each gender we will bring with us to the hospital. 5 names of each gender...and will pick a name from that list when we see what s/he looks like.
We only hope for healthy...whether Sprout has a penis or vagina really makes no difference. If we were theme-ing the nursery then it would be helpful to find out, but we are keeping everything neutral because we want to(hope to) have more babies in the future. The only name that is a definite will be if its a boy, we have decided to use my Dad's first name as the middle name (My dad passed away in 2004, and had a great first name!) I am pretty near certain that Sprout is a girl though...but I am usually wrong, so we will have to see.
Again...so sorry it has taken me so long to update...hopefully I can update more frequently now that I will be into the second half of the pregnancy, with belly pictures, appointments and ultrasounds. Not that any of that is really interesting, but just seems to be the thing to do!
Our Christmas was great, we spent it in our hometown with T's family. A nice long vacation. I was really glad to see the end of 2009, even though it brought me to where I am today, it was not an easy year. I had 3 pregnancies in 2009, and hopefully this one will go until May 2010! We lost T's grandma this year too, spent all of our available cash and more to one day have a baby...its been tough...but it has prepared me more for 2010 and all the future years to come.
Monday, November 16, 2009
There is a Miracle Going On!
Had the NT scan today. The baby is so amazing. The development is crazy! I don't find out results until Wednesday, but I am not concerned with them really anyway. Wednesday we get to hear the heartbeat for the first time....I will probably cry.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Busy Week Ahead.
Not sure when I am going to breathe.
I work 5 out of the next 7 days....that's sure going to tire me out....and the only day this week I am really home is Thursday!
Tomorrow I have my NT scan. its the only screening we are really doing for this pregnancy. We opted to have a level 2 ultrasound at 19 weeks rather than bother with screening which yields a high false positive rate.
Wednesday I have my 12 week OB appointment...I never in my life thought I would ever make it to a second OB appointment! We will get to hear the baby's heartbeat...which I have not ever got to hear yet! I am so looking forward to this day! I think it will make me feel 100% relieved!
Friday I have my first OB Med appointment. I have to see this obstetrical medicine dr because of my history with my health problems. Basically none of them pose a direct risk to the pregnancy at their current state. However any treatments for them are contraindicated in pregnancy, so it make it a bit of a tough situation. So we need to put a plan in place for what will happen IF I have any problems. I am hoping to not have to use this plan though :)
My issues are, just if I never mentioned this before....
Crohn's disease....which I have had 2 extensive surgeries for.
Elevated triglycerides from an inherited condition (Chylomicronemia)....fun...not
I also have hypothyroidism, MTHFR, oh and probably other stuff I'm not remembering about right now. It's the first 2 that are the problem though. Expecting mothers who have had a flar of Crohn's from my research, have actually needed hospitalization and TPN...but I guess thats probably a worst case thing. And with the elevated triglycerides, similar story. Since the medication used to lower triglycerides is contra-indicated in pregnancy, there's no other way to treat extremely high levels, I am trying to control it with diet, but with the nausea and lack of appetite I have had, if I feel like any food, I eat it right now.
So that's my life this week....12 weeks tomorrow...totally unbelievable to me. It really feels like this is flying by(and I hear this is the slow part of the pregnancy) I can't imagine how fast its going to go by in the new year!
I work 5 out of the next 7 days....that's sure going to tire me out....and the only day this week I am really home is Thursday!
Tomorrow I have my NT scan. its the only screening we are really doing for this pregnancy. We opted to have a level 2 ultrasound at 19 weeks rather than bother with screening which yields a high false positive rate.
Wednesday I have my 12 week OB appointment...I never in my life thought I would ever make it to a second OB appointment! We will get to hear the baby's heartbeat...which I have not ever got to hear yet! I am so looking forward to this day! I think it will make me feel 100% relieved!
Friday I have my first OB Med appointment. I have to see this obstetrical medicine dr because of my history with my health problems. Basically none of them pose a direct risk to the pregnancy at their current state. However any treatments for them are contraindicated in pregnancy, so it make it a bit of a tough situation. So we need to put a plan in place for what will happen IF I have any problems. I am hoping to not have to use this plan though :)
My issues are, just if I never mentioned this before....
Crohn's disease....which I have had 2 extensive surgeries for.
Elevated triglycerides from an inherited condition (Chylomicronemia)....fun...not
I also have hypothyroidism, MTHFR, oh and probably other stuff I'm not remembering about right now. It's the first 2 that are the problem though. Expecting mothers who have had a flar of Crohn's from my research, have actually needed hospitalization and TPN...but I guess thats probably a worst case thing. And with the elevated triglycerides, similar story. Since the medication used to lower triglycerides is contra-indicated in pregnancy, there's no other way to treat extremely high levels, I am trying to control it with diet, but with the nausea and lack of appetite I have had, if I feel like any food, I eat it right now.
So that's my life this week....12 weeks tomorrow...totally unbelievable to me. It really feels like this is flying by(and I hear this is the slow part of the pregnancy) I can't imagine how fast its going to go by in the new year!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Love...Life...Hapiness
My Baby is still in there, its absolutely amazing, I think he/she will be a dancer! It was moving around like crazy! I hope everyone gets to experience this one day it is truly a miracle. Baby was measuring a day ahead 11w1d. Heartbeat was 158. We couldn't get a profile view, only head on, and of course a bum shot with long legs too...gets that from its daddy probably! U/S tech thought it could be a boy, but were choosing not to find out gender.
I haven't been feeling well. I have been very nauseous and have no appetite, I have lost 15lbs since before the IVF. My RE said he will note that in the referral to my OB, along with the kajillion other issues I have in my regular life. I have my NT scan next week, but we are opting not to do any other screening. I honestly don;t even really care about the NT measurement, it doesn't really mean anything other than further testing which we won;t be doing. Basically I am just excited to have more peeks at baby to be reassured that s/he is doing well. We will have a level 2 u/s at 19 weeks though, to make sure everything is structurally normal, because that is my main concern, that theres no potentially fatal, or life threatening defects.
Thats about all thats going on over here, only 4 more days of PIO shots, woohoo!
Monday, November 2, 2009
How the Hell....
I am 10 weeks today....how the hell did that happen? It seems to be flying by already, I feel like I just found out yesterday still.
I had another u/s yesterday, everything is still going just fine, baby is doing just fine, and this might actually mean I am safe, I have a 99% chance of having a baby next year....a real live baby.
So enter freak out mode...um...I don't know what to do with a baby...I have never had a baby. I mean ya, I deliver babies, but I deal with brand new babies, not like growing, screaming babies. Does all first time moms have this freak out? I really hope so...tell me I'm not alone :S
I have been terrible at keeping up to date on here, I started this place just as a keeper of information I can look back on to have. Well once I got past my miscarriage date I started a written journal. and honestly there's a whole lot of nothing going on...absolutely nothing. I have symptoms, but no different than they have been, and there will be no belly pics for a while...because, I am starting from a pre-flubbed state.
I am thrilled to report that I have had not one single drop of bleeding...that's the biggest thing I worried about, and there has been none *knock on wood*. With that I am relieved.
I had quite the experience in the fertility clinic yesterday. I really don't understand some people. I get that it was a Sunday, so there would probably be a few kids, I am not kidding you when I say that there were a good 10 kids or more in there. I see a few things wrong with this. we can assume that seeing kids in general (especially kids under say 2 years old) its hard on the heart for infertiles, so why people bring their kids is beyond me. It still hurts my heart, and I am 10 weeks pregnant. It is hard for me to look at these kids. Another reason, kids are so freaking germy, and half of these kids probably also go to daycare during the week, and with all the H1N1 going around, keep your kids at home, when you are around a population potentially at high risk for this virus. I will pay kudos to the clinic for getting rid of all of their toys during this outbreak of H1N1. But about half of the parents were very vocal about how pissed they were that there were no toys...bring your own, then your child can keep his/her germs to themselves. T and I moved to a different area of the waiting room to avoid the germs, and to be able to hear ourselves think.
Oh and on the topic of H1N1. I can;t get the vaccine, I have had both a vaccine reaction to the seasonal flu vaccine, and I'm immunocomprimised, so we have a problem. I am literally staying in my home all the time, other than to go to work. And T got vaccinated last week (after waiting in line 7 hours at a vaccine clinic) so we should be ok here, as long as we do what we can to prevent it.
last but not least....yesterdays pic.
I had another u/s yesterday, everything is still going just fine, baby is doing just fine, and this might actually mean I am safe, I have a 99% chance of having a baby next year....a real live baby.
So enter freak out mode...um...I don't know what to do with a baby...I have never had a baby. I mean ya, I deliver babies, but I deal with brand new babies, not like growing, screaming babies. Does all first time moms have this freak out? I really hope so...tell me I'm not alone :S
I have been terrible at keeping up to date on here, I started this place just as a keeper of information I can look back on to have. Well once I got past my miscarriage date I started a written journal. and honestly there's a whole lot of nothing going on...absolutely nothing. I have symptoms, but no different than they have been, and there will be no belly pics for a while...because, I am starting from a pre-flubbed state.
I am thrilled to report that I have had not one single drop of bleeding...that's the biggest thing I worried about, and there has been none *knock on wood*. With that I am relieved.
I had quite the experience in the fertility clinic yesterday. I really don't understand some people. I get that it was a Sunday, so there would probably be a few kids, I am not kidding you when I say that there were a good 10 kids or more in there. I see a few things wrong with this. we can assume that seeing kids in general (especially kids under say 2 years old) its hard on the heart for infertiles, so why people bring their kids is beyond me. It still hurts my heart, and I am 10 weeks pregnant. It is hard for me to look at these kids. Another reason, kids are so freaking germy, and half of these kids probably also go to daycare during the week, and with all the H1N1 going around, keep your kids at home, when you are around a population potentially at high risk for this virus. I will pay kudos to the clinic for getting rid of all of their toys during this outbreak of H1N1. But about half of the parents were very vocal about how pissed they were that there were no toys...bring your own, then your child can keep his/her germs to themselves. T and I moved to a different area of the waiting room to avoid the germs, and to be able to hear ourselves think.
Oh and on the topic of H1N1. I can;t get the vaccine, I have had both a vaccine reaction to the seasonal flu vaccine, and I'm immunocomprimised, so we have a problem. I am literally staying in my home all the time, other than to go to work. And T got vaccinated last week (after waiting in line 7 hours at a vaccine clinic) so we should be ok here, as long as we do what we can to prevent it.
last but not least....yesterdays pic.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
8w5d Ultrasound and update
Today was a good day...and let me start by being sorry that I am only updating on things once a week...but thinks are really uneventful, and for that I am so grateful.
On Monday and Tuesday I had a lot of pregnancy symptoms, tired nearly constantly and throwing up even with the z.ofran on board. But the rest of the week has been great, only slight queasiness and not feeling really up to eating.
I feel bad that I am only coming on posting U/S pics. In reality I live each day in fear that I am going to lose this baby like the other 2. I don't know when that's going to go away, I thought it would after today, but its still there. Its really sucks that I can't just enjoy being pregnant today, but thats what happens when its been ripped away from you before.
Anyways....today's u/s was a big day for me. This week was the week I lost the first pregnancy, at 8w3d. Today is 8w5d. And I am so glad to say that everything looked GREAT! Baby was moving all around, we could see the brain and spine, and a beautiful Heartbeat of 162. And the baby also now measures right on time, at 8w5d. This is the most amazing picture I have ever seen, and will probably stare at it until next Sunday when I have my next u/s.
I hope you all get to experience this very soon, if you aren't already, its absolutely amazing! To come from infertility, failed treatments, and losses, to this...is truly a miracle!
On Monday and Tuesday I had a lot of pregnancy symptoms, tired nearly constantly and throwing up even with the z.ofran on board. But the rest of the week has been great, only slight queasiness and not feeling really up to eating.
I feel bad that I am only coming on posting U/S pics. In reality I live each day in fear that I am going to lose this baby like the other 2. I don't know when that's going to go away, I thought it would after today, but its still there. Its really sucks that I can't just enjoy being pregnant today, but thats what happens when its been ripped away from you before.
Anyways....today's u/s was a big day for me. This week was the week I lost the first pregnancy, at 8w3d. Today is 8w5d. And I am so glad to say that everything looked GREAT! Baby was moving all around, we could see the brain and spine, and a beautiful Heartbeat of 162. And the baby also now measures right on time, at 8w5d. This is the most amazing picture I have ever seen, and will probably stare at it until next Sunday when I have my next u/s.
I hope you all get to experience this very soon, if you aren't already, its absolutely amazing! To come from infertility, failed treatments, and losses, to this...is truly a miracle!
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