8w5d Ultrasound and update

Today was a good day...and let me start by being sorry that I am only updating on things once a week...but thinks are really uneventful, and for that I am so grateful.

On Monday and Tuesday I had a lot of pregnancy symptoms, tired nearly constantly and throwing up even with the z.ofran on board. But the rest of the week has been great, only slight queasiness and not feeling really up to eating.

I feel bad that I am only coming on posting U/S pics. In reality I live each day in fear that I am going to lose this baby like the other 2. I don't know when that's going to go away, I thought it would after today, but its still there. Its really sucks that I can't just enjoy being pregnant today, but thats what happens when its been ripped away from you before.

Anyways....today's u/s was a big day for me. This week was the week I lost the first pregnancy, at 8w3d. Today is 8w5d. And I am so glad to say that everything looked GREAT! Baby was moving all around, we could see the brain and spine, and a beautiful Heartbeat of 162. And the baby also now measures right on time, at 8w5d. This is the most amazing picture I have ever seen, and will probably stare at it until next Sunday when I have my next u/s.

I hope you all get to experience this very soon, if you aren't already, its absolutely amazing! To come from infertility, failed treatments, and losses, to this...is truly a miracle!

Amazed, and Thankful!

I was so scared going into today's U/S...I was convinced that it would be bad news...or maybe preparing myself for the worst.

I got in there...had the tech who doesn't talk again! Show the dead baby momma her baby right away PUHLEASE! no, she waits until shes done all of her measurements before she shows me the screen...so not right!

There's still one bean in there, going strong. Measuring 7w3d, which us great since a week ago it was measuring 6w3d. HB was 149. I am very happy. I am so grateful for this. They scan recurrent pregnancy loss patients weekly until 12 weeks. So I go in again on Saturday for another scan. I hope its great, and that next week, it actually looks baby-like rather than like fluff.

Oh....pictures....right

Baby's first U/S

We have a baby! One little bean, measuring 6w3d. A couple days behind, but thats ok. Also had a heartbeat of 132 bpm. Happy, but still nervous and cautious.

Morning Sickness at its Best

(6w4d)

Today I have had morning sickness at its best. I feel awful, and does it seriously even count as morning sickness when you don;t actually throw up? I WISH I was puking, because I know I would feel better if I did. its just sitting there, at the top of my stomach, taunting me, makeing me feel like crud all day.

I decided this morning it was so bad I would start taking my di.clectin. After an 8 hour sleep last night, after taking the di.clectin i slept an additional 8 hours today....so that just won't cut it. And I didn't even feel any better when I woke up. I have a call in to the clinic hoping for a script for z.ofran.

On a more upbeat note....my u/s is tomorrow! YAY! 18 hours to go...at 8am(ish) tomorrow we find out whats going on in there!

Oh and is it insane of me to want to still pee on HPT's? I know I am pregnant...i just love seeing how dark that line is ;)

5428

I am thrilled, this is the best beta I have EVER had!

U/S October 10th!

3075...this is happening.

Still pregnant, and so blessed.

I am so thrilled to have the miracle of IVF working for us so far. I have been in denial that I am pregnant, other then being tired and occasionally just a bit queasy, I don't feel pregnant at all. And I think I am protecting myself from being excited in case this ends the way the other 2 did.

Today I feel more excited, and like this one might actually work. My first pregnancy my betas never got above 2400 so they did an early u/s rather than keep doing betas. So having betas over that are amazing to me, and I feel like this means its meant to be.

I told my employer and co-workers, and the entire world now. I feel better that people know. Everyone is thrilled, and thankfully my co-workers understand why I am not feeling excited, but very scared.

My clinic apparently goes by Transfer date as conception date, rather than retrieval date. So I am not considered as far along as I am. I think that retrieval date makes more sense and is more accurate. So I guess my due date is somewhere between May31st and June 3rd. Does anyone know why they do this, or does your clinic do this too?

So far I have had no bleeding, which, the first time I bled from 3.5 weeks until the day I lost the baby...so that makes me feel good.

I am also not knowing what to talk about, being a pregnant infertile, on an infertility blog. I don;t want to hurt those that are still waiting for their Miracle, but its important for me to keep my thoughts here too...so that I have some documentation on it. So I understand if people aren't reading anymore, or if it is hard for them to read/comment. I have had a bit of trouble at time with pregnancy blogs....I mean I am happy for them, but it was hard. I hope I am not going to be insensitive, and If I am, please, leave a comment or shoot me an email and tell me!

Will try to post more often, about more than just being pregnant, I promise.