Placenta Previa

I am proof that things don't get less complicated once you achieve pregnancy after infertility!

I have Partial Previa of the placenta. the placenta is covering part of the cervix. As of right now, I only had some slight spotting over a week ago now, so my OB is not concerned about that. However if I bleed I am going to have to be off work and on bedrest, possibly in the hospital depending on how significant it is.

I just hope I don't bleed.

I will have another ultrasound at 32 weeks to see if the placenta has moved away, if it has all is well, if not, schedule the c-section for 37 weeks-ish I suppose.

Anatomy Scan

This morning was sprouts anatomy scan, 19w2d. Sprout was not co-operative at all, and they couldn't get all the shots they needed, after several tries, drinking juice, walking and emptying my bladder, still nothing. Long story short, we need to go back, on Monday...and we got NO pictures because of the position Sprout was in...face down back up...crappy.

Wow I Suck!

So it looks like I haven't updated you all in about 2 months! I am sorry.

Really, there's absolutely nothing to tell, this has been a firly uneventful pregnancy, which I wasn;t expecting to happen. I haven't had an ultrasound since my 12 week on that you have seen. My Anatomy scan is this Wednesday morning, and I am very much looking forward to seeing this baby again.

I have been seeing an OB medicine doctor in addition to my regular OB because of my pre-existing issues, and because my blood pressure was increased a bit. The good news is the my pressure is fine now, so it was probably just an early pregnancy anxiety thing. I remain on Fragmin, and will for the duration of the pregnancy, because of my increased risk factors for clotting on top of the MTHFR. My family has a huge history of clots(heart attacks) so they want to keep me on the thinner.

I am 19 weeks today! Sprout...we have lovingly named this baby-to-be, is moving all of the time, and I even bought a doppler to listen to the goings on in my 'ute'. Its been an amazing experience, and I feel so happy that I get to experience it. We are NOT finding out the gender until delivery day...so Sprout will be Sprout until it is born. We have a short list of names for each gender we will bring with us to the hospital. 5 names of each gender...and will pick a name from that list when we see what s/he looks like.

We only hope for healthy...whether Sprout has a penis or vagina really makes no difference. If we were theme-ing the nursery then it would be helpful to find out, but we are keeping everything neutral because we want to(hope to) have more babies in the future. The only name that is a definite will be if its a boy, we have decided to use my Dad's first name as the middle name (My dad passed away in 2004, and had a great first name!) I am pretty near certain that Sprout is a girl though...but I am usually wrong, so we will have to see.

Again...so sorry it has taken me so long to update...hopefully I can update more frequently now that I will be into the second half of the pregnancy, with belly pictures, appointments and ultrasounds. Not that any of that is really interesting, but just seems to be the thing to do!

Our Christmas was great, we spent it in our hometown with T's family. A nice long vacation. I was really glad to see the end of 2009, even though it brought me to where I am today, it was not an easy year. I had 3 pregnancies in 2009, and hopefully this one will go until May 2010! We lost T's grandma this year too, spent all of our available cash and more to one day have a baby...its been tough...but it has prepared me more for 2010 and all the future years to come.

There is a Miracle Going On!

Had the NT scan today. The baby is so amazing. The development is crazy! I don't find out results until Wednesday, but I am not concerned with them really anyway. Wednesday we get to hear the heartbeat for the first time....I will probably cry.

Busy Week Ahead.

Not sure when I am going to breathe.

I work 5 out of the next 7 days....that's sure going to tire me out....and the only day this week I am really home is Thursday!

Tomorrow I have my NT scan. its the only screening we are really doing for this pregnancy. We opted to have a level 2 ultrasound at 19 weeks rather than bother with screening which yields a high false positive rate.

Wednesday I have my 12 week OB appointment...I never in my life thought I would ever make it to a second OB appointment! We will get to hear the baby's heartbeat...which I have not ever got to hear yet! I am so looking forward to this day! I think it will make me feel 100% relieved!

Friday I have my first OB Med appointment. I have to see this obstetrical medicine dr because of my history with my health problems. Basically none of them pose a direct risk to the pregnancy at their current state. However any treatments for them are contraindicated in pregnancy, so it make it a bit of a tough situation. So we need to put a plan in place for what will happen IF I have any problems. I am hoping to not have to use this plan though :)

My issues are, just if I never mentioned this before....

Crohn's disease....which I have had 2 extensive surgeries for.

Elevated triglycerides from an inherited condition (Chylomicronemia)....fun...not

I also have hypothyroidism, MTHFR, oh and probably other stuff I'm not remembering about right now. It's the first 2 that are the problem though. Expecting mothers who have had a flar of Crohn's from my research, have actually needed hospitalization and TPN...but I guess thats probably a worst case thing. And with the elevated triglycerides, similar story. Since the medication used to lower triglycerides is contra-indicated in pregnancy, there's no other way to treat extremely high levels, I am trying to control it with diet, but with the nausea and lack of appetite I have had, if I feel like any food, I eat it right now.

So that's my life this week....12 weeks tomorrow...totally unbelievable to me. It really feels like this is flying by(and I hear this is the slow part of the pregnancy) I can't imagine how fast its going to go by in the new year!

Love...Life...Hapiness

My Baby is still in there, its absolutely amazing, I think he/she will be a dancer! It was moving around like crazy! I hope everyone gets to experience this one day it is truly a miracle. Baby was measuring a day ahead 11w1d. Heartbeat was 158. We couldn't get a profile view, only head on, and of course a bum shot with long legs too...gets that from its daddy probably! U/S tech thought it could be a boy, but were choosing not to find out gender.

I haven't been feeling well. I have been very nauseous and have no appetite, I have lost 15lbs since before the IVF. My RE said he will note that in the referral to my OB, along with the kajillion other issues I have in my regular life. I have my NT scan next week, but we are opting not to do any other screening. I honestly don;t even really care about the NT measurement, it doesn't really mean anything other than further testing which we won;t be doing. Basically I am just excited to have more peeks at baby to be reassured that s/he is doing well. We will have a level 2 u/s at 19 weeks though, to make sure everything is structurally normal, because that is my main concern, that theres no potentially fatal, or life threatening defects.

Thats about all thats going on over here, only 4 more days of PIO shots, woohoo!

How the Hell....

I am 10 weeks today....how the hell did that happen? It seems to be flying by already, I feel like I just found out yesterday still.

I had another u/s yesterday, everything is still going just fine, baby is doing just fine, and this might actually mean I am safe, I have a 99% chance of having a baby next year....a real live baby.

So enter freak out mode...um...I don't know what to do with a baby...I have never had a baby. I mean ya, I deliver babies, but I deal with brand new babies, not like growing, screaming babies. Does all first time moms have this freak out? I really hope so...tell me I'm not alone :S

I have been terrible at keeping up to date on here, I started this place just as a keeper of information I can look back on to have. Well once I got past my miscarriage date I started a written journal. and honestly there's a whole lot of nothing going on...absolutely nothing. I have symptoms, but no different than they have been, and there will be no belly pics for a while...because, I am starting from a pre-flubbed state.

I am thrilled to report that I have had not one single drop of bleeding...that's the biggest thing I worried about, and there has been none *knock on wood*. With that I am relieved.

I had quite the experience in the fertility clinic yesterday. I really don't understand some people. I get that it was a Sunday, so there would probably be a few kids, I am not kidding you when I say that there were a good 10 kids or more in there. I see a few things wrong with this. we can assume that seeing kids in general (especially kids under say 2 years old) its hard on the heart for infertiles, so why people bring their kids is beyond me. It still hurts my heart, and I am 10 weeks pregnant. It is hard for me to look at these kids. Another reason, kids are so freaking germy, and half of these kids probably also go to daycare during the week, and with all the H1N1 going around, keep your kids at home, when you are around a population potentially at high risk for this virus. I will pay kudos to the clinic for getting rid of all of their toys during this outbreak of H1N1. But about half of the parents were very vocal about how pissed they were that there were no toys...bring your own, then your child can keep his/her germs to themselves. T and I moved to a different area of the waiting room to avoid the germs, and to be able to hear ourselves think.

Oh and on the topic of H1N1. I can;t get the vaccine, I have had both a vaccine reaction to the seasonal flu vaccine, and I'm immunocomprimised, so we have a problem. I am literally staying in my home all the time, other than to go to work. And T got vaccinated last week (after waiting in line 7 hours at a vaccine clinic) so we should be ok here, as long as we do what we can to prevent it.

last but not least....yesterdays pic.

8w5d Ultrasound and update

Today was a good day...and let me start by being sorry that I am only updating on things once a week...but thinks are really uneventful, and for that I am so grateful.

On Monday and Tuesday I had a lot of pregnancy symptoms, tired nearly constantly and throwing up even with the z.ofran on board. But the rest of the week has been great, only slight queasiness and not feeling really up to eating.

I feel bad that I am only coming on posting U/S pics. In reality I live each day in fear that I am going to lose this baby like the other 2. I don't know when that's going to go away, I thought it would after today, but its still there. Its really sucks that I can't just enjoy being pregnant today, but thats what happens when its been ripped away from you before.

Anyways....today's u/s was a big day for me. This week was the week I lost the first pregnancy, at 8w3d. Today is 8w5d. And I am so glad to say that everything looked GREAT! Baby was moving all around, we could see the brain and spine, and a beautiful Heartbeat of 162. And the baby also now measures right on time, at 8w5d. This is the most amazing picture I have ever seen, and will probably stare at it until next Sunday when I have my next u/s.

I hope you all get to experience this very soon, if you aren't already, its absolutely amazing! To come from infertility, failed treatments, and losses, to this...is truly a miracle!

Amazed, and Thankful!

I was so scared going into today's U/S...I was convinced that it would be bad news...or maybe preparing myself for the worst.

I got in there...had the tech who doesn't talk again! Show the dead baby momma her baby right away PUHLEASE! no, she waits until shes done all of her measurements before she shows me the screen...so not right!

There's still one bean in there, going strong. Measuring 7w3d, which us great since a week ago it was measuring 6w3d. HB was 149. I am very happy. I am so grateful for this. They scan recurrent pregnancy loss patients weekly until 12 weeks. So I go in again on Saturday for another scan. I hope its great, and that next week, it actually looks baby-like rather than like fluff.

Oh....pictures....right

Baby's first U/S

We have a baby! One little bean, measuring 6w3d. A couple days behind, but thats ok. Also had a heartbeat of 132 bpm. Happy, but still nervous and cautious.